somewhere
in the infinitesimal space
between neurons
firing and misfiring
lives the tiniest glimmer of hope
that our love was made
of precious metals
alchemical magical solids
not pixie dust and wishes
floating in the ether
where I am searching
without a compass
somewhere
in the black expanse
of my mind
where we are stars
you, expanding, consuming
sucking my light into your void
where I am angelic
with wings rubbed raw
all the dust washed away
my dreams left skeletal
I am searching
between the near and far
within the known and unknown
somewhere
in the infinite moment
before sunrise
I stand on the horizon line
seeking tomorrow
behind the shadows
the promise of light
hanging heavy in my heart
but my eyes are searching
between the day and night
between the cracks in the sidewalk
somewhere
in the here and now
bodies rolling together
skin touches skin
like ocean meets sky
above you
light as air
warm as sunshine
you are roiling deep
and I am searching
behind your eyes
I am searching
without a compass
lost