are you an iceberg
or just a cold man
floating in the cocktail
that was once my bubbling life
watering me down as you melt
a sad little puddle of anger and delusion
a snowflake that thinks it’s granite
a drop of water that forgot it is the ocean
I am the Titanic
and whether or not you are deeper than you appear to be
I am bound to sink
for I thought myself unstoppable
too big to be undone
turns out I’m just as full of hot air pockets as you
each filling with ice water
the cold is becoming unbearable
I used to be a flame you worshipped
drawn like a moth
’til you were close enough
for me to melt your skin
tough-guy candy shell coating
crackling between my teeth
I used to chew boys up and spit them out
like cheap chewing gum
you stick to the roof of my mouth
I gag and gag
but have no way of expelling you from my life
for you have me tethered to an anchor
(payback for all those Bubble-gum-boy’s hearts)
trapped by the enormous weight of my love
the bird-like rib cages of three small sisters
cage me like a criminal
behind the walls of my own home
and if all these walls could speak
would they spill my shame like a river
rolling over everything
bursting pipes
burdening septic systems
until sewage seeps up from the front lawn
so the neighbors can smell the lies behind the smiles
and you, an iceberg in the mudslide
pulling me under
battered by the debris that was my life
head barely above the surface
sinking
sinking
drowning
sinking
drowning
sinking…